I discovered something I wrote more than a year ago. Whew, I was teary-eyed while reading it. And stunned how safely far away I am from then. 

I placed it here as a testament, as a reminder that anything as heartbreaking as what's happening to me at that moment, shall pass. And also as a thank you to the people who's always behind me whatever katangahan I do with my life... to my family who loves my daughter more than me now. Thank you for your unconditional love that I tend to overlook. To you who held my hand and made me laugh during those trying times and wipe away all my hatred and sorrows ( I haven't even had post partum depression, wow thank you thank you). And also a note to myself.. the ever troublemaker....ano na naman kayang kagagahan ang sunod? Hahaha. Wow, how can i just laught about it now?

Benefits for Solo Parents Pushed

From abs-cbnNews.com

With most solo parents bearing the burden of raising the family alone, a bill has been filed in the Senate calling for additional benefits in the form of discounts for purchases of milk, food, medicines, and clothing, and income tax exemption.

Senate Bill No. 1439 entitled "Solo Parents Welfare Act of 2010", filed by Senator Loren Legarda, seeks the following support and benefits for solo parents:

1. Ten percent (10%) discount from all purchases of clothing and clothing materials for the child from birth up to two years;
2. Fifteen (15%) discount from all purchases of baby's milk, food and food supplements;
3. Fifteen (15%) percent discount from all purchases of medicines and other medical supplements/supplies for the child; and
4. Basic personal exemption from individual income tax.

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Well, i'm looking for school tuition fees discount or anything that have education in it hah! That's the most nakakaubos-yaman part, i think.
Will this, if passed into a law, reward or encourage unwanted pregnancies and the likes? Hmmm... I think it's in the regulation. There's reproductive bill naman if passed into law supposedly to take care of such things.

Random.

I thought you wouldn't be my child's father for no reason. I have been really trying hard to understand you of your situation but today i already know. You're random. A random thing to me. A random thing to my daughter. You've chosen us to be not part of your life even if you can compromise to. Now you wouldn't spare me of the pain of remembering your lies. Your carelessness is maybe due to stupidity but I suspect it is more to not caring about me, about us. Probably most of the times, you don't even remember we exist.

She may have come from your sperms and she may be using your surname. But that's about it.

SINGLE PARENT BENEFITS according to the Philippine Law

No one says that single parenthood is a bed of roses but it's somewhat consoling to know that the Philippine law specifically has something in it to ease out this daunting task.

The Solo Parents' Welfare Act of 2000(Republic Act No. 8972) offers the following 'bail-out':

Parental Leave. Leave benefits granted to a solo parent to enable him or her to perform parental duties and responsibilities where physical presence is required.

Flexible Work Schedule. The right granted to a solo parent employee to vary his or her arrival and departure time without affecting the core work hours as defined by the employer.

Educational Benefits. The Department of Education (DepEd), Commission on Higher Education (CHED), and Technical Education and Skills Development Authority (TESDA ) offer academic privileges.

Protection from Discrimination. Under this act, no employer shall discriminate against any solo parent employee with respect to terms and conditions o employment on account of his or her status.

Housing Benefits. Solo parents shall be given allocation in housing projects with liberal terms of payments on said government low-cost housing projects in accordance with housing law provisions prioritizing applicants below the poverty line as declared by the National Economic Development Authority (NEDA).

Medical Assistance. The Department of Health shall develop a comprehensive health care program for solo parents and their children. The program shall be implemented by the DOH through their retained hospitals and medical centers and the local government units (LGUs) through their provincial/district/city/municipal hospitals and rural health units.

SOURCE: Atty. Alexander Dy of Villanueva, Gabionza, and De Santos Law Office.

As Our Lives Collide

Every moment feels surreal. Like everyday I'm walking into a fog of dream-ish or nightmar-ish quality. Sometimes there's joy, there's excitement but often what's there is only fear, guilt, regrets of great palpability .

Surely, there is an ideal situation to what I'm having through... I have been waking up to these could have been's and what not's... I've already said my sorries to the one who is perfectly innocent of my carelessness, who deserve nothing of any of that.

Someday, I'll say these words unvaguely. Someday all my diziness and all my emotions will clear up and I hope nothing will remain but love.

Love. In its perfect solidity and pureness for the first time. Right now, it's just right here in my head but someday it will be filling my heart and my whole system.